hi!!!!!!

let see...

I didn't update my blog for 3 months dy!!!!

fat mou lo.....

finally....final exam ended...

no need to study until don't have enough sleep...

my form 4 is also going to end...

so sad...no more honeymoon....

study study and study...

but for now,I'm going to have fun first!!!!!

i want to watch all dramas!!!!!

woohoo.....

going to korea next next week....

anticipating it......got the schedule just now....

it will be fun...i guess....

BUSY WITH MANY THINGS.....

I AM SICK...

3 months...

I realized that I didn't update my blog for 3 months!!!
omg~~~~this blog is already dead for 3 months...
now it is revived!!!!lol..
actually I tried to write something but my mind just had nothing when I wanted to blog....
in this 3 months....I had done a lot of things...
study....mid-year exam....mid term holiday~~
and I attended 2 camps in 2 weeks!!!
I had a lot of fun in the first camp..which is 學記全國營...
I knew frens from other states.....and become dark...T.T
4 days and 3 night....I experienced a lot of thing that I never done before.....
I don't think I enjoyed myself in the 2nd week camp...
but I was happy because I was with my frens~~
the games were OK....but the food was not really good~~*no offense la..*
that's what I did in the 2 weeks holiday~~
homework still not touched....just sleep after both camps...
damn tired.....and my muscles were all pain and my leg hurt....
so I stay at homw and sleep....sleep...sleep.....
haha....

after holidays....school reopened....
I started to scared for my results....
thank god I didn't fail my 3 science subject....
but bio and che.....both were B4....
phy was better coz I went for tuition...
so..the conclusion is......
I need tuitions for bio and che!!!!!!
got no.5 in class...and no.15 in whole form...
at least I had improved overall.....
Thank God~~~

oh ya~~
I passed my st. john exam!!
yay!!got my uniform just now....
I can't imagine how I look with the uniform~~
lol...
annual inspection this Sunday...
rehersal.....become darker....
EMAS fest the day before.......become darker....
foot drill training.....darker....
PJ this morning....even darker......
annual inspection this Sunday......lagi darker.....
OMG.....I don't want to become dark......
but the weather is too hot.....water evaporate too fast and raining at night....
got thunder somemore.....
haiz....the worst is...I have not enough sleep.....
my panda eye is bigger and bigger.....
I want to sleep!!!!!!!!!!!!

transformers is showing in the cinema!!!
I want to watch....I watched the trailer...
quite nice....I guess...
I haven't watch 17 again.....even night at the museum 2 also I haven't watch....
so many movies I want to watch...
but busy with homework...moral folio....and meeting....
I wish my life can slow down.....time can slow down....
everything can just slow down......

Tagged by Jesslynn...

Pass the quiz to 10 ppl that you wish to know how they feel about you
01. Audrey
02. WenXin
03. Shu Yi
04. Zhi Jing
05. Hui Yi
06. Ying Ying
07. Katrina
08. Yi Chen
09. Yan Wen
10. Wen Ting

1.What do you think about the person who tagged you?
she is a very friendly person~~


2.Who is no.7 having relationship with?
I dunno...


3.Who is no.9 having relationship with?
no idea..


4.If no.9 & 1 are together,will it be a good thing?
is quite good...i think..hehe..


5.What about no.1 & 5?
can't imagine it...

6.What is no.3 studying?
form 4..just like me..


7.when was the last time you chatted with no.6?
last last week..


8.Does no.8 have any cousin(s) in his/her school?
yup..both her sister..


9.Will u woo no.8?
no..of course...


10.How about no.4?
no...she's a good fren of mine~~


11.does no.2 have any siblings?
ya...a sister..


12.how did you get to know about no.3?
in tengku afzan..


13.No.4?
in afzan..


14.No.7?
in SABS..


15.No.2?
in afzan too..


16.where does no.1 live at?
kuantan...


17.How did you get to know no.10?
I know her since I was in kindergarten..

18.Is no.5 the sexiest person in the world?
I think her idol is....

Tagged by Jesslynn~~

1. besides ur lips, where is the favourite spot to get kissed?
I have no idea about this...

2.how did you feel when you woke up this morning?
wow..I slept more than 12 hours!!

3.who was the last person/people you took photo with?
frens..

4.would you consider yourself spoiled?
no gua..

5.will you ever donate blood?
sure..

6.have you ever had a best friend who was of opposite sex?
no

7.Do you want someone to be dead?
no

8.what does your last text message say?
u're welcome..

9.what are you thinking right now?
shall I study for my bc??

10.Do you want someone to be with you right now?
no

11.what was the time you went to bed last night?
before 9

12.where did you buy the tee you are wearing now?
Kuantan Parade..

13.Is someone on your mind right now?
my mum...

14.who was the last person(s) who text you?
sam

NINE lucky person to do this quiz
01 Jie Yin
02 Audrey
03 Yi Chen
04 Wen Ting
05 Melissa Ng
06 Wen Xin
07 Jia Wern
08 Shu Yi
09 Zhi Jing

sick again....

yesterday,I already felt sick in school...
it was not too serious so I din bother about it...
but I started to feel uncomfortable at night...
I felt very sleepy in tuition...my eye very pain....
but I do sustain until I went home....
I straight go to bed when I reacxh home because I was so so so so tired....
today I wake up at 6.30am as usual.....
I want to go to school....
but I feel dizzy and I end up sleeping until 10am......
may be the weather,hot in the afternoon but rain at night....
make me sick....or maybe I am too weak...
I got flu and a lil bit of fever now.....
but I'm not going to see doctor....
I dun like antibiotic anyway.......
the doctor will give this medicine every time~~
I think I'll be ok if I have a rest.....
bc tuition teacher called just now...
no tuition for today!!!!yay~~~
I can rest for few more hours....
shall I go for addmaths tuition tonight??
I scare I will be very sick if I go to tuition....
haiz..........wat to do now??

tomorrow is hari anugerah kecemerlangan......
need to go back to TA....
long time din meet them already~~~
looking forward to it....
hope I can be fine tomorrow.....
if not...I dunno wat will happen....
maybe I will fell asleep before my turn to get the money...
haha.......
I feel sleepy dy~~~
have a nap first....

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T.T

today is the first day of exam.....
very sad a........
bm paper quite ok......
the karangan just write 3 point....lose mark dy....
bi....wow!!I wrote 2 and 1/5 pages~~~
haha.....normally I write short essay......
sejarah...haiz...hopeless......
essay too short....I think get low marks....
add maths......one word to describe:hard.....
3 question wrong dy......
maybe just get A2 or even B3...
no confident to myself......

2moro...
bio:memorize procedure.....
moral:memorize all the definisi of nilai....
mm:chapter 3!!!dun understand la~~~

haiyo....good luck to me....

tuesday is april test!!!
but i haven't finish studying.....
this is my first exam....
scare cannot do well..
although is just monthly test....not need to take it so serious....
but then I dun like to get low marks...[no one like rite??]
hmm....need to memorize many many things...
sejarah...bc...moral...all this....
I dunno whether I can memorize all or not....
2 more days left!!!

go for meeting this morning....
I thought I already late....
mana tau...just few ppl there....
so we wait....after 10 minutes...
just few more ppl come...
so...we start our meeting....
I'm yawning all the way in the meeting....
not tired...but lecture from gong gong is very long...
canot tahan la....
we discuss many problems that occur during the competition....
mostly is about teachers' problem....
I have nothing to say.....so i just record what they say...
and sit there day-dreaming....
meeting finish around 11.30am...
then we chat while wait for my kakak come fetch me...
suddenly rain outside.....
I already know that my kakak will reach quite late...
so just continue chatting la....
until 12.30.....finally can go home....
haha...
no mood to do anything because of the rain.....
now....the rain stops....
I think I shall do my homework and revision~~~

hope can get good results in this test!!!!

these days...

long time din update this blog....
coz ntg special happens...
so din write anything here...
I attend the lecture for st.john yesterday and today....
damn tired....but I gain a lot of knowledge...
most of them are form 1 students....
just few of us are form 4.......old junior...haha..
I'm lack of sleep this whole week....
everyday sleep very late....then need to go to school on the next day...
always feel sleepy in school......in tuition.....
I must sleep early today...
if not my panda eye sure become more serious.....

exam is around the corner....
haven't study yet.....
april test after a week...
the first exam for me in form4.....in SABS as well....
I dunno wat result i can get...I think it will be harder as I expected....
in this one week time...I must study 10 subjects..
can i make it??can I study them in just 1 week time???
although I'm only form 4....but next year is SPM already!!!!
must prepare from now!!!!I know it's a lil bit too early to say this...
but it's true....all the things learn in this year will come out in SPM....
I have no more extra time if din study from now......

today is practical for st. john....
I can do all properly except CPR...
at the first time...when I blow...then chest din rise...
when I do the second time only successful....
when Dr.Hew come and check....
I fail to blow until the chest rise...
why like that????sometime can sometime cannot....
maybe a lil bit of mistakes.......
I scare if exam time I cannot do it..sure fail lo....
but I will try my best la....
I want to pass the exam!!!
I must pass the exam!!!!
must do well!!!!!!

2moro is a school day......
haven't finish homework.....

books...

I bought a lot of books during the holiday!!!
all of them are English novels~~
I think I'll take a long time to read all of them....

I WAN TO IMPROVE MY ENGLISH!!!!!!!

whenever I want to write something...
I cannot write it out as what is in my heart..
I dunno why...
there are many things in my heart...
but i dunno how to speak or write it out...
I want to share my feelings...
at the same time...I dun wan ppl to know what I'm thinking...
so conflicting rite??
haiz.....

I said to myself before that I want to finish all my homework in this holiday...
but still.....there are many homework I haven't do...
when I think of homework,I will feel dizzy...
I try to do them...but just a while...
I cannot concentrate on them....
especially chemistry.....the questions make me hate this subject...
but...I must try my best to love it....
if not......my result for chemistry will be the worst among those new subjects....

everyday seems like the same...
wake up....clean up them have breakfast...
study for a while...play computer...
have lunch.....watch tv...take bath..
read books....have dinner...watch tv...then sleep...
nothing different except sometime go out for shopping...
life seems boring...
may be it's because I dunno how to make my life more colorful...

holiday is going to end....
is time to back to school...
must face all the teacher in school...
do homework..
tuition...
exam...

and starting to be busy.....

it's tiring...

2day is the first day of xue hai debate competition...
wake up at 4am!!!!![wa....so early...]
6 am must reach TP!!!the person who late pick up rubbish....
so...reach there at 6am sharp!![yay~~]
but....still many ppl reach late....
and some...go back early...coz of tuition...
2day become "superman"..run here and there...
sweating all the day...
its tiring....
then go to jia wern's house with pen nee...
to see how is their progress of preparation for the competition...
unfortunately....just 2 of them in the team present.....
TA team!!!!do ur best 2moro!!!!!
SABS team!!!!good luck to u all~~~

I'm so tired now...but still update blog..
know wat....you must be very strong if you want to be xue ji...
why??becoz...
need to carry tables and chairs......
actually...these jobs are done by boys.......
but.......we are lack of boys here...
so...girls must do it also............
not bad.....build muscles~~haha!!
but its tiring..........seriously.......

Although I'm tiring,I still looking forward for 2moro!!!!
sleep early 2day...
so that wake up early 2moro!!!!

holiday!!

today is a holiday~~
because of ???dunno la...is about Islam thing I think..
wake up on 8.30am...
tidy up my desk...then do some homework and on my computer...
play games...until 1.00pm...
go to jia wern's house.....to discuss about the debate...
6 of us go to her house...
pai seh a jia wern..
we eat a lot...cookies...candy....maggie!!!!
haha....thx~~~~~
back home at 4.30pm...
very lazy to do homework a......
dunno why...
just no mood to do them...
haiz...........

this thursday...SPM result will be announce...
it 's a school day...
need to interview the students!!!
yer....I'm the only xue ji in school...
too bad...need to interview alone...
so scary...
who want to accompany me???
it's so good if can go other's school....
haiz.......

this Saturday!!!
debate competition!!!!
I'm looking forward to it~~~~
hope the competition will be hold successfully!!!
good luck to all the contestants.....

tomorrow....
school day..........

feeling..

what is my feeling now??
quite hungry...lol
but not sleepy although it's almost 1.30AM..
surfing net while hearing songs....
I just write a short post...

tomorrow is Saturday...
supposed I can sleep until 12.00 pm..
but tomorrow school got gotong-royong perdana!!!!!
and afzan 's sports day...
I want to go to afzan to give support to my friends...
but moral teacher said want to do activity for folio!!!!
very difficult to make decision....
haiz....

need to type letters for debate competition...
tomorrow must finish them...
hope I can finish it in one day...
hope the debate competition will be carry out successfully...
I will be very happy with that.....

hwaiting!!!!!!!!!!!!

rainy day...=.=

raining since morning..
I go to school...loads of homework waiting for me...
almost every teacher that enter the class ask me why I didn't went to school the day before...
repeat and repeat.....I say the same sentence nearly 10 time..lol
I realize that rain brings many vexation...

1.need to walk a long path to reach the class unless you want to get wet....
2.take long time to go to canteen T.T
3.so cold until shiver throughout the day....[i admit that its too exaggerate..haha]
4.need to bring umbrella....add the mass of my bag..
5.easy to fall sick...

I got many homework to do...
but the matter is,
I don't have books!!!how can I do my homework??
I can just delay...and delay....
hope I can spend a little bit time to buy books
and finish my homework asap!!!!!

didn't go to school today...

I didn't go to school today....
why??not ponteng ok.....
when I wake up this morning..
my stomach very pain!!!
don't know why....dat day also like dat...
I cannot endure the pain..so I decided not to go to school...
if I go to school..I also cannot concentrate on study.....
I can't do anything.....so I just sleep until I feel a bit better..
when I wake up...it's already 9.ooam...
I have my breakfast.....still got little bit pain la...
then watch tv lo....until time for lunch.....
only I stand up from chair and have my lunch...
I didn't think about to "visit" the clinic because my dad is not at home...
and I don't want to worry because of these small matter....
after that...surf the net for a while...
I suppose to have account tuition on 4.30pm...
but teacher called me and said no tuition for today...
because no electricity..lol
replacement on saturday....that's good!!
hmm.....
as the conclusion...I have a good rest for today~~

daydreaming

that's wat I did in school for the whole day..
lol
today is my first day in SABS...
my class had 10 chinese....only...
all the teachers who entered give back the test papers....
me...who didn't sit for the exam can just see others paper...
and
daydreaming....
I had nothing to do..
all of them busy doing their work...
unlike TA,my classmates were not too noisy...it is a good thing..
today is a boring day...in school...

TO all my friends....
who sit for exam 2moro....
good luck to u all and hope u all can get good results!!!!!

the little nyonya

finally......I finish watching the little nyonya!!!!!
the denouement is so good!!!!
I love this drama very much...
its a Singapore drama...

the little nyonya~~

the heroine---jeanette aw欧萱the male title role----戴阳天
and 戚玉武

34 episode....
watch finish it within 1 month...
haha...sure la...
watch in youtube...
this drama is also broadcast in astro shuang xin~~
very nice!!!

Leaving...

As the title...
I'm leaving TA today...
to a new school...new environment...
I'll meet many ppl dat I do not know...I feel a little bit nervous when I reach the school...
I'm nervous...but I do no regret with my decision..
many of then cried this morning...
but not including me...
I'm so cold blooded....why I din cry???
I cannot explain it....this is me...
I AM A PERSON WHO DO NOT KNOW HOW TO CRY....
lol
to day register..
there are 10 of us...
who transferred there..
three of us are in the different class..
sad....sifu is the most cham wan...
study in different block...
the block is quite far from me n jie yin studying...
just can meet her when recess time..
oh ya...their koperasi is same as TA!!!
ok...that's a little bit different..
btw....some of the item is cheaper than TA's but some are quite expensive...
a not too good news for me...
students in SABS need to wear tie....
EVERYDAY...
I scare I will look like a nerd after wearing the tie...
hope I will not..
then...because of some reason...
three of us decide to go back to TA........to visit our friends and settle something..
I found that go to school without study is quite boring...
we have recess there....go to our class for a while...
then lepak here..lepak there...
because of the boringness...all of us go back to my house..
that time is 11.30++..I think..
it's nothing to do...no...i had to type things for the debate competition..
but I'm so lazy to do that....
so....just chat and see blog..
and blogging now...

haha...
this is today's report!!!
will meet jing wen and shu yi !!!

Finally...

after waited for so long....
finally I got the letter yesterday......
everyone asked me why I want to transfer??
the reason is not important anymore...
I leave this school is not because of the "GOLD"!!!
don't misunderstanding me...
I am so reluctant to leave this school...seriously...
I had many friends in this school....
but staying in this school make me feel stress...
I don't know why.......
I'm very tired in this school...
haiz.....but I'll still contact with u all la....my friends.....
pls don't forget me o!!!!
same do I...I won't forget u all...
must always meet together....

I'll miss u all!!!!
miss TA too!!!

OMG!!!!!

angry.the teacher sure got mental problem...she asked us to stand in the middle of hot sun and kawad for almost half an hour!!!!!!no...IS half an hour!!!!omg~~~so hot man...my face become red after so long being under the sun....and.....she neglected unit trafik!!!firstly she said that unit trafik also need to kawad....after all of them done the kawad,she already forgot about unit trafik....wth!!!!!we stood the for half and hours just to watch others kawad???so unfair!!!!!!I feel like boxing the teacher.....and we do nothing and just sit in the science laboratory after kawad....this unit is so inactive....I dislike this president....so arrogant....haiz.....is so pathetic having this type of president....damn much homework especially sejarah~~I duno whether I wan to use a new book to do moral or not.....if I can transfer,then how??wasted my money.....waiting for sejarah question from odi......haha.....oh ya....there is a Japanese girl study in our school today....is for AFS ...she's staying here for one year!!!!she is so cute...she has dimples when she smiles....but too bad...she is not in my class...it's ok because I can still be friend with her[hopefully]...as long as I am in this school....hehe...I'm so strenuous everyday because I scare I cannot get to transfer....erm........hope the letter will be sent to me on this week........ok....off to do homework....^^

my life....

Although it is time to sleep now....I still want to write part of my 15++years life....
originally......I had a happy family...
but now...my family is not intact...
I don't know why....I feel more lonely at home without my mum......
No one can share my happiness and sadness...
but luckily,I have friends who willing to hear me.....
there are many things to settle after leaving of my mum.....
I have to become a "mother" in a family.....
I have to manage this home....
the responsibility of mine is not just to study hard and get good results now...
that are more things I have to do besides my homework...
without mum....I'm having a big trouble....
I cannot manage my time properly...there are something weighing on my mind...
but nobody knows.....and....I duno how to reduce my pressure...
If I'm just a normal student....errr....I din say that I'm abnormal...
If I'm JUST a student.....form 4 is just same as other form....[just a little bit more homework]
I can finish my homework on time...[maybe]
but when I go home everyday...i have a lot of things to think about....is A LOT!!!!
maid problem....two maids cannot communicate properly....needs me to settle their problem...
I have to think of how can I settle it without hurting anyone??
bro n sister problem....always fight.....and shout anytime....and disturb me...
xue ji......now is the time busy preparing for the debate competition...
I'm the assistant secretary...my job is to type all the letters....OMG....so many...
but now i try to done it as well as my homework....
hmm......I'm worry about my study.....homework is not done...chemistry haven has a tuition yet...
I dunno whether I can deal with form 4's studies....
I hope I can do it...and this weekend......
I must finish all my delayed homework!!!!!!!!
I PROMISE!!!!I will done my homework in this weekend....

ok......this is a LONGEST post in ENGLISH I had ever write....
haha.....finally I wrote a long post in my blog....IN ENGLISH!!!!!

I HOPE I CAN HANDLE FORM 4 STUDY AND IMPROVE MY ENGLISH!!!!!

gambateh!!!!!!

30012009

yesterday was a blissful day for me....
I bought a new jacket!!
baby milo brand......love it very much!!
and then,dad bought me a new camera & computer dictionary~~
those were things that I want since long time ago...
finally I got them......
I'm so happy~~~
dad bought so many things for me this year....
thx to him!!!!
and

there was a farewell party for jia wen at KTR..
we had a surprise for her...
but she DIN cry!!
despite she didn't cry.....I think she would touched by us....
I'm quite enjoyed myself last night...
the sad thing was....I'm a vegetarian now...
SO......I can't eat the lamb!!!!!and it looked so delicious......TAT
I went back considered early....because today need to pray for my mum...
I took quite a number of picture..
but I'm so lazy to upload + I duno how to install that into my laptop..

JIA WEN!!!!!
HOPE TO SEE YOU AGAIN~~~~~
MISS YOU!!!

my English

twilight....
I bought this book last year....
and I juz read until page 4 now....
haha....
in this 4 pages...
there were almost 10 words that I duno the meaning....==
it proved that my English is too poor....
but i'll improve myself!!!!
with checking the dictionary...
although it is a very slow process..
but i 'll try my best to know more vocabulary.....
start to write post in English...
but still..............
not brave enough to speak in English....
haiz............................................
now I can juz read,read,and read.........
hehe......

duno wat to write dy....lol
that's all~~~~

1st day of CNY!!

Today's mood is extremely good!!!!
I woke up quite late this morning~~
9.30am
after had breakfast,all of us went to TC.....
juz "long gai"..
then had tea at OLD TOWN...
wa.....the lemon tea was very bitter!!!
I've already added a lot sugar....
still very bitter........n sour....
I promised I won't drink it again.......[OLD TOWN fans dun attack me]
ok...
then we headed to my cousin's house...
they were watching the Taiwan drama "i do??"
the drama was nice~~for me la....
their house was big n beautiful!!!
I like the bedroom very very much~~it was my dream bedroom...
I admired the designer now...
unlike my house....spaceless...
too many things...
we saw lion dance too...
after that we went home....
and I sit in front in the computer until now...
my eldest uncle visited us....just now
and he gave me some inference book for English...
but...he asked me to read it when I am in Form 5...lol
and now my dad is calling me...
bye~

我觉得....

我觉得他们来这里很闷耶....
都不说话，不像以前那样...有说有笑...
可能以前在爷爷家游东西玩吧~~
不然就是大家都长大了...比较成熟了...
现在他们都去了叔叔的家.....可能在那里他们会玩得很开心吧~~~
这我不知道啦~~看我在打部落格就知道我很空闲...
这个新年..我不想出门...感觉不像新年...
看到亲戚...就算是碰面了也没说话...
真是的...犹如陌生人...
ok 啦~~其实不至于啦~~
只是有点闷而已...
今年真的不热闹..
唉....
这是第一次我在除夕夜叹气~~
明天去叔叔的家...
感觉很奇怪...
我们是客人，不过就觉得我们不应该去的样子....
可能是我想太多了吧~~
不要理我...
我就是这样的人...
不过想太多对自己不好...
自己辛苦...
我跟他们，真的没有话题聊吗??
可能我不在，他们会聊得更开心...
我是一个很被动得人..
你不来跟我说话，我就保持沉默...
所以也造成了我的冷漠...
哈哈...
亲戚们走了...
我就自己一个人看戏咯...
今天从KL来的亲戚们，
我都没有说超过5句话...
说了HappyNew Year,谢谢，拜拜...
就这样...
有点可悲...

算了...
去看戏....

除夕夜...

今年的除夕夜有点不一样...
除了我家少了一个成员之外,
我的大伯一家也没回来....
今年家里真的很不团圆...
二伯要来了...
不过还没到达...我知道他们只是“顺便”来看爷爷...
之后就走了...不过我不知到为什么，
爷爷还是那么疼他们一家..这就叫做偏心...
他疼谁，不是我能控制的...
我....
觉得自己很没有用...
一点点事情都做不好...
别人可能会听到烦了...
不过这是我自己的感觉，
我就是那么悲观....
我不知道为什么我每次都往不好的方面想...
这是很自然的事...
噢...我好像是离题了..
哈哈...
现在再等着二伯的到来...
不知道叔叔一家会不会来呢??
希望会来吧~~
爷爷一定很希望他们来...
难得今天是亲戚们聚在一起的日子....
我也很希望他们会来...
希望我不会失望...


祝大家新年快乐!!!!HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!

new computer!!!

I get my new computer today~~~
finally I have my own computer...
the screen is damn big!!!!
I really like this computer...
thx to my dad!!!!!

I can't type chinese yet.....
coz dun have the software...
hmm.....I can just type in english for this moment...
haha....
this is the first post in English!!!!

dat's all for today...
I know my english is very poor...
pls..............dun laugh at me......

我......

現在的我....是什麽心情呢??
心....很亂.....
我很辛苦啊~~
爲什麽我的命運會這樣??
我失去了我最親的人...
我有很大的壓力...有很多事等著我去解決...
我有種快要窒息的感覺...
我不是一個能承受很大壓力的人...
爲什麽呢??
應為我不會疏解壓力...
不擅長表達自己...每次隱藏自己的情緒...
這就是我...
我不希望我的存在會連累到任何人...
我不希望得到別人的同情...
我不希望別人用不一樣的眼光來看我...
我很在意別人的眼光...
我......
有時候我自己也不知道自己要什麽...
呵呵...是不是很可笑??
自己都不能幫到自己...還想要幫人....

我一直都是...那麽悲觀...
是天生的嗎??
是不是都好...
這是無法改變的事實....

又是一事感觸...
沒事的....
功課太多了!!
做功課去~~

功課~~

我的天哪!!!
功課多到不知道怎麽講....
真是的....
我不明白...爲什麽那個XXX要給那麽多功課??
難道他就不知道我們還有別科的功課嗎??
haiz..................
我忙裏偷閒才有時間寫部落格...
希望自己可以分配到時間....
不然的話真的是做不完...
希望我可以習慣這樣的生活....
我知道現在才剛開始...
還有很長的時間要過...
不過我相信自己的能力...
我一定可以的!!!!
加油~~~

KL....

再多幾個小時...
我就會踏在KL的土地上...
很久沒有去了...
難得有機會跟朋友們一起去....
就儅給自己放假一天吧!!
回來又要繼續為學業打拼了...

不知道爲什麽...
我寫部落格..
有時會寫很長很長...
有時不知道要寫什麽...
尤其是深夜時...
我會寫特別多...
可能是深夜時想法會比較多...

關於這個trip.....
還是回來了再説吧~~
我先去 oi oi了...
眠一下好過沒有...
還有3個小時就要出門了!!
希望會玩得開心!!

tata~~~~~

忙....累....

我终于有时间写部落格了...
着整个星期...我都很忙...
功课...补习....小册子...
我终于把小册子做完了...
总算松一口气了...
我知道还有很多工作陆续有来....
不过先解决眼前的工作是最重要的...

最近不知道为什么，
脾气变得有点暴躁了...
可能是很忙的关系吧...
学校很多事情要烦...
换了校长真的不是件好事....
校规都变得一塌糊涂...
很多很离谱的校规出现...
那个校长应该该是钱太多吧...
该修理的地方不修理....
把钱花在不应该该花的地方...
算了...
这些都轮不到我管的....

我又当班长了...
上了高中...
和初中有很大的分别...
我当了一年的班长...
已经很累了...
为什么还要选我呢??
是真正想我当班长..
还是把我当成挡箭牌??
当班长不是一件容易的事..
我每天...都迟进班...
我去找老师...哪知道回到班..
老师已经在上课了...
现在刚开学..
班上有很多东西要烦...
keceriaan 啦~~
今年又多了一个...
buku rekod keluar masuk...
每个学生出去都要记录...
真麻烦...
我自己已经很忙了...
还要帮老师做这个...做那个...
现在是在考验我的体力吗??
每天上下四层楼不是一件容易的事...
haiz...........
我真的很累了...
去年累了一整年...
今年继续...
就不能让我休息吗??
不过这也是一种考验...
可能现在是个过渡期...
过了就会比较轻松了....

但愿如此....

为什么学校老师教书那么让人不明白??
很多东西都带过罢了...
根本没有仔细地说清楚...
这个是一个老师应该有的教书方式吗??
我不知道...
我只知道....老师说什么...我听得一头雾水...
没有教就叫我们做练习...
我们怎么会做呢??
虽然我们多有补习..
不过学校老师也有责任去教好学生..

不过这个年头....
我们只好靠补习了...

刚开学就这么累了...
到年尾不久累卦了??

不爽!!!!!

啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊!!!!!
不爽!!!不爽!!不爽!!!
我不要啦~~~~
跟朋友分开了....
今天分班了~~
我............
我竟然被分去4B班!!!!
当我听到我的名字在B班时，
我要哭了...
为什么我进不到A班???
不公平啊!!!!!!
为什么会这样??
为什么??
为什么??
算了.......
反正都要转校了...
如果转不到...
我一定要申请进A班!!!
总之,我要去A班!!!
老师说A班和B班都一样...
不过我觉得是不一样的!!!
就像chantelle说的......I deserved A class!!!!!
考试那么辛苦当然就是为了进最好的班...
差差的也能进到好班那还要分班????
哼!!!!!!!!!!
超级不爽啊....（其实没那么夸张）
不过不爽又有什么用??
我能做什么??

今天填了申请转校的form.....
在那之前我还在想...到底我还要转校吗??
我还是选择了试试看...
对不起....朋友们...
我知道你们不希望我转校...
不过我们还是可以保持联络啊...
我们也有相同的补习...
我们还是好朋友...
永远的好朋友...
我一定不会忘记你们的...

我们一起加油!!!!!

开学啦!!!!!

期待已久（其实一点都不期待）的开学终于到了....
今年已经form4 了...
今天周会特别久...
校长叫我们怎样放bag都讲了15分钟....==
总之讲了很多废话...
我们还没分班..
只好跟着去年的班来排..
竟然还要我这个ex-班长来点名....咋到一下...
今天第一次在koperasi做工!!
超多人的~~
我又忘记带计算机...一直要拿别人的来用...
下课后就听很多科目的taklimat....
很多人都没有听...在讲话...
声量可以跟pasar比....哈哈...可以想象是多么的大声...

说真的...
我不是很喜欢学校的食堂!!!!
红色的顶...
很恐怖下...
今年不懂为什么要全部人一起下课...
害到下课过后的课都要押后10分钟...
我们就迟10分钟回家...
然后koperasi就会很多人...
时间都不够...
很多人要买时都上课了...
haiz.........

今天要选科!!
我选science stream....
不过我只补physics...
希望其他科我都可以应付!!!
form 4的生涯开始了~~
希望我不会给自己太大的压力~~
努力吧!!!!

2009年的第一天...

这么快...2009年了...

不知道为什么..

总觉得2009年有很多事等着我去做...

我会很忙...会有很多负担...会有很多责任...

不过现在想这些未免太早了吧~~

毕竟今天只是新一年的第一天...

在这个假期里...我做了很多事情..

还过得蛮充实的...

假期很少跟朋友联络..

总觉得关系不像以前那样好了...

我认识了很多新朋友..

不过我的性格还是没变..

依旧那么冷...

我几时才可以开朗一点呢??

谁可以让我改变我的性格??

应该是没有吧~~

我有老一岁了...

哈哈...

虽然离我的生日还很远..

不过思想也该成熟点了...

不该在像小孩子那样..

这么依赖别人..

要独立了...

再过几年就要出国读书了...（想得太远了~~）

还是学会自己照顾自己比较好...

妈妈现在不在了..

现在什么事情都得靠爸爸..

还有靠自己..

不能每天都上网..

应该读多一点书..

增加多一点知识..

我看到别人写的稿那么好..

自己自叹不如..

所以我决定了..

要多读别人的稿..

多读书..

才可以写出好的稿....

要相信自己的能力..

最近发现自己的思想变了..

每次都会想很多..自己都不知道为什么...

是什么都好...

现在最重要就是做好自己...

2009年一定会比2008年好!!!!!